Convergence/Emergence

CONVERGENCE/EMERGENCE

Looking at life that doth surround

A deeper meaning I hath found

Connection upon connection

Bringing introspection

I look at the pool at self reflection

Wondering at my direction

 

Where others go is clear to me

What is for me I cannot see

I walk about and measure

Each connection do I treasure

Past, present and future doth blend

Will this self negation mend

 

I have asked for this way of life

The adversity, tests and strife

I walk along this path alone

Nowhere truly calling home

Taking all I have to give

Is how I long to live

 

Sometimes present

Sometimes missed

Among them all I do exist

Weaving through their lives I go

A common thread they barely know

Some think 'ti's only show

 

Though sad it may seem

'Ti's joy that it doth bring

My heart doth sing

As their laughter doth ring

 

It is in this happiness

That I draw strength

To fulfill it I will go

To any length

 

No other path

 Is clear to me

 ‘Ti's hard to see

 One’s destiny

Ti's the only way

I know to be.

-Shiidon, October 2008

Recently I was at a gathering and it was cause for reflection.  My surgery brought about allot of introspection.  For one thing, I updated my will, which brought to my attention much of what I value.  I looked upon many of those I knew at the gathering blending together in circles outside of that which I was familiar.  My past was embracing my present and who knows what part of that would become my future.  Many times it was as if I was not there, snippets of conversation from person to person, not finding a place to rest.  What i say here is what I see in my "mirror."  I really enjoy the happiness of others, the laughter, the joy, the fulfillment of their lives.  It is the ones that slip or falter that I strive to reach out to and lend a hand, not wanting to focus on myself but on the others around.