Ladder of Tears

LADDER OF TEARS


As insignificant
As I am
I wonder at times
At my place
And must over and again
Myself face

Who am I to dream
Insignificant
And unworthy I seem
No home to be found
In life’s grand scheme

I’ve tread this life
Mostly alone
Though truly my character
It did hone
Yet any destiny
For me is unknown
The solitude I bemoan

Those few times
I reach out for me
I regret the action
I turn and flee
For heavier is the heart
When dashed,
After a plea

The solace
That comes to me
Is when I other serve
And for Him, not me

The tears that come
From time to time
Are but a ladder
For me to climb
Lessons they are
That life is hard
Each one,
A small scar

Tis ephemeral world
Is speeding by
And twill not be long
Before I die

When I leave
This world I know
And to the next world
I do go
I hope a life of service
Will show
-Shiidon, December 2011

I wrote this today while sitting and meditating on life. It is what it is, nothing more or less. I find myself in a creative mood. Now if only I can find myself... :)