In the Moment

My living room taken at the time of this post.

IN THE MOMENT

As I think of you, often

The edges around me, soften

I smile in the knowing

That through life

We are all growing

As I reflect on the past

Tis clear

That both good and bad

Do not last

What has been is done

What’s to come, unknown

Yet of both

Do we bemoan

Each moment is a chance

To embrace life and dance

The field of opportunities,

An expanse

So in my thoughts of you

I do not rue

For if you knew

A distance you would see

Yet tis not what’s found in me

For detachment, is a state

In which I strive to be

Though in the end

There is a fee

Of all hopes and desires

We are free

I am at peace

Though my thoughts of you

Do not cease

Ti’s acceptable to care

Though you are most likely, unaware

Love truly

Doth me surround

Though in love

With me, is not found

The former doth abound

The latter doth me confound

As I go through life

I have learned

And t’was dearly earned

Knowing one’s self

Is the first step for me

Should I ever

With another want to be

This inner peace

That often comes

Eases the heart

And allows me perspective

To be reflective

And with an easier heart

To live

-Shiidon, January 2012

My last poem was a darker one. This one more upbeat.  I have had a lot of time to think with the long holiday weekends.  One thing that has come to my assistance is cleaning.  I have a strong desire for order.  I again have my living room back in order.  My kitchen is mostly in order.  My bedroom, closet and bathrooms are in order.  Now for Winrik's room and the garage.  Winrik is moving into his own apartment this week coming so I guess I will have to think of it as a guest bedroom from now on.  An amusing thing he said to me when he was accepted to the program that is helping him.  He said, "Now you can have ladies over."  Shahdi is most likely coming back soon but she has already made it clear that her goal is to get a job and her own place as soon as possible.  So, I find myself smiling as I walk through the house.  An orderly surrounding somehow helps the mind to be free.  I reflect on people, places and times old and times to come but not with any particular longing or regret.  I am at peace and balance (how long this will last is to be seen).  So, I start my year with peace of mind and a smile.