Saturday, July 05, 2014

Reflections Upon Self

REFLECTIONS UPON SELF

You ask
How am I
When all I do
Is think of you

Day in and out
I find myself
About to shout
For answers elude
On what life’s about

I find myself
At home alone
Reflecting what was
The here and now
And the cause
…of it all

The effect
I am aware
My heart
Doth slowly tear
Of any hope
I must beware

There is a peace
In this place of mine
As I reflect
On the divine
Of self, I must let go
For on that path
Emptiness doth show
And more pain
Than I will ever know

A whisper of care
That may come my way
Will certainly leave me
In disarray
For it always has
Lead to my dismay

Of this care
Don’t breathe a whisper
For it feeds the hope
From which I must cope
And Pain
Beyond my scope
When things lead awry
Which has and will be
Till the day I die

The happiest
I have ever been
Are those times
I've swallowed within
And faced out
With selfless care
And only of others
Been aware

The days go fast
This life
Will not long last
And to service
Do I hold fast

My hope
Is for others
Taking joy
In the lives I see
And how,
This sets me free

I would live this way
A hundred fold
Would that I know
Another finds joy
And in that I grow

-Shiidon, July 2014

Graduate school has taken much of my creative time and energy which has lead to the long delay between poems on this blog or any other form.  This summer I have off and have been recuperating.  I find myself taking one sentence, interaction, comment or thought from the day and meditate and think about it over and over again.  It sometimes, on a rare occasion, finds itself in written form such as this poem. If perchance someone stumbles upon these posts I would be surprised.  My solace is not in the posting but the writing.  It is the act of creating and writing that somehow purges the self.

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