Treading Water

TREADING WATER

I sit at home

All alone

And reflect

In this respect…

Time marches on

The young ones

For the most part

Gone

I sit and wait

Not knowing my fate

The anxiety

Will not abate

Around me signs

Are prevalent

A constant reminder

That will not relent

Change is here

Of that I am clear

The decision on how

Is drawing near

Either way

A subtle fear

At times I seek

To another speak

Or to dream

Of what would seem

To be my desire

But to His will

Is what I aspire

I catch myself

Holding breath

The range of emotions

Have wide breadth

There is a peace

That comes along

As time seems

To go on and on

The lessons to be learned

Are firmly to

My spirit burned

Patience I learn anew

To a greater level

Than I knew

What else

Is one to do?

For now I carry on

The daily routine

And of other worlds

Do I dream

Waiting

Alone

-Shiidon, June 2010

Many times we find ourselves in a place where decisions are being made for us and there is nothing we can do but wait and pray. Just when we think we have learned patience, we are tested beyond our new limits. Once we have reached that level, we are tested to those limits. We are stretching our wings and developing our muscles so that one day we can soar in the atmosphere of the on high. At times like this we reach out and attempt to receive solace from loved ones. We reach out and look for signs of any kind that will direct us towards our desired outcome. But in the end, it is self reflective attention that is needed. As Bahá'u'lláh says in the Seven Valleys, we see the beginning in the end, war in peace and so forth. Life is a journey fraught full of tests and difficulties. The joy is in the learning and the growth of our soul through these tests and difficulties.